So on the 20th I was looking for Julius's eyelashes that I could have sworn he had and realized that he actually didn't. Then yesterday on the 21st not even 24 hours later, he had eye lashes! So my baby boy is growing up. He actually has eye lashes. And on top of that his little finger nails are getting harder and are no longer bluish, they were actually long enough to bite off! He weighed 4 lbs 5 oz last night and continues to gain weight. He even nippled an entire feeding today. For the first time! We're pretty sure that his whole problem to begin with was that the flow wasn't good enough. I think that's why he chooses to use my breast as a pacifier as opposed to food, the flow isn't all that strong.
Yesterday the Infant CPR and chocking class went well. James, mom, Ricky and myself were there with one other couple. It wasn't bad at all and I feel like we all learned it so that's good =)
Ugh I don't even know what else to write. Got to help give him a bath for the first time last night. He was so cute.
So much is constantly going on. I feel completely warn out and he's not even here yet. I wouldn't be so worn out if every 3 hours on the dot I had to friggen pump. Every time I get a damn chance for a break it's time to pump. Every time I get into some deep sleep, it's time to pump, then I'm up because pumping wakes me the hell up. My milk production is going all haywire again today. I got the go ahead from my lactation consultant to take fenugreek but I decided I'd wait to take it only if I continued having problems with my production. Then I started pumping 4-6 oz every sitting. Yeah that's still 4-8 oz less than what I was doing but it's still a great number. Than all of a sudden today my production was staying around 2 oz each pump. I just don't know what's going on. Half of me just wants to quite breast feeding, my sons not taking to it well, and I'm just So exhausted to the max I can't stand it and Julius is not even HERE yet. I know the whole hour drive it takes to get there each day and back doesn't really help either, driving like that daily twice a day can be pretty exhausting in itself. Either way. I can't wait for Julius to come home.
This whole him being there and me being here or not being able to hold him as much as I'd like thing is pretty much driving me off the deep end. Driving? Hell I've already driven off of it. But, this too shall pass. Eventually. Even if I do lose my sanity by the end of it.
Going up to Wilmington for 4pm tomorrow. Maybe do beach with James' mother before hand. She really wants to and I'd love to but because it takes me so many hours to get the amount of sleep that I need to at least be functional (never mind be rested completely) that I usually am getting up at around 11am or I'm getting up super early like I've been doing since I can remember then just being to damn tired to do anything. If I sleep till 11am that's too late to go to the beach and still be back in time to go to Wilmington at the time we'd like, and if I wake up early like normal, going to the beach will run me dry before my day's even started. We'll see what happens.
At 6pm tomorrow we're going to visit a whole bunch of art galleries. It's free. Part of some community thing. Anyways I think it'll be awesome. James is a huge artist so I know he'll enjoy it. We're staying the night again Friday. Saturday James has work. Sunday more job hunting. Monday James has work. And there will be lots of chores, trips to Wilmington, and pump sessions in between.
God please help me through the next month.
Yesterday the Infant CPR and chocking class went well. James, mom, Ricky and myself were there with one other couple. It wasn't bad at all and I feel like we all learned it so that's good =)
Ugh I don't even know what else to write. Got to help give him a bath for the first time last night. He was so cute.
So much is constantly going on. I feel completely warn out and he's not even here yet. I wouldn't be so worn out if every 3 hours on the dot I had to friggen pump. Every time I get a damn chance for a break it's time to pump. Every time I get into some deep sleep, it's time to pump, then I'm up because pumping wakes me the hell up. My milk production is going all haywire again today. I got the go ahead from my lactation consultant to take fenugreek but I decided I'd wait to take it only if I continued having problems with my production. Then I started pumping 4-6 oz every sitting. Yeah that's still 4-8 oz less than what I was doing but it's still a great number. Than all of a sudden today my production was staying around 2 oz each pump. I just don't know what's going on. Half of me just wants to quite breast feeding, my sons not taking to it well, and I'm just So exhausted to the max I can't stand it and Julius is not even HERE yet. I know the whole hour drive it takes to get there each day and back doesn't really help either, driving like that daily twice a day can be pretty exhausting in itself. Either way. I can't wait for Julius to come home.
This whole him being there and me being here or not being able to hold him as much as I'd like thing is pretty much driving me off the deep end. Driving? Hell I've already driven off of it. But, this too shall pass. Eventually. Even if I do lose my sanity by the end of it.
Going up to Wilmington for 4pm tomorrow. Maybe do beach with James' mother before hand. She really wants to and I'd love to but because it takes me so many hours to get the amount of sleep that I need to at least be functional (never mind be rested completely) that I usually am getting up at around 11am or I'm getting up super early like I've been doing since I can remember then just being to damn tired to do anything. If I sleep till 11am that's too late to go to the beach and still be back in time to go to Wilmington at the time we'd like, and if I wake up early like normal, going to the beach will run me dry before my day's even started. We'll see what happens.
At 6pm tomorrow we're going to visit a whole bunch of art galleries. It's free. Part of some community thing. Anyways I think it'll be awesome. James is a huge artist so I know he'll enjoy it. We're staying the night again Friday. Saturday James has work. Sunday more job hunting. Monday James has work. And there will be lots of chores, trips to Wilmington, and pump sessions in between.
God please help me through the next month.
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